Thursday, June 24, 2010

FrUsTrAtEd....




I had heard a number of stories related to the post exam (read last exam of engineering) syndrome. Seniors used to tell how the devil-may-care attitude would go down in the drain.....! I knew I would be acquainted with it, sooner or later. But little did I know, that these worry worms are gonna get me as soon as this. I mean WT*,, it’s only been two days since I gave my last exam. I am supposed to be enjoying, shopping, or doing other things, thinking about which I used to get the drive to study....!!


But here I am (minus the spunk). Getting super duper worried tense and frustrated. About what you ask.......?? One word for you guys...! FUTURE (with capital F). Innocent as it may sound, but these days it has become one word which drives me to wits end. Aaarrrgggggghhhhh....!


I fail to understand, why suddenly anybody and everybody has become so concerned and worried about my future. From relatives to friends, neighbours to cousins...!! I won’t be surprised if tomorrow morning the dhoodhwala asked me the same thing “didi, aage ka kya soocha...?”.


You guys must be wondering, what’s about these innocent sounding questions that making me so crazy (actually crazy is a very mild world, they make me pull out all my hair grrr, and mind you I LOVE my hair). The thing is that, I haven’t decided anything. Yea. I don’t even have a slightest idea as to what I have to/want to do....! A job? Further studies...? Anything else...? Nothing else :P ...?


Blank blank blank...! I know nothing. I can’t understand why people can’t just mind their own business. Already I am so pissed off at myself, for being so indecisive (1 min- a job, after 5 mins- I think I should study, after 15 mins- job = money=wow, after half an hour – I am young abhi, I should study........... goes on and on,,,, at one point I was even considering English honours..!). Last thing I want is a bunch of people dancing on my head and baffling me.


Okie, any sort of career related guidance/information/suggestion is welcome....!

p.s I am an electronics and communication engineer... freshly out of college, into the big bad world...!