Friday, April 30, 2021

The Blame Game

As is with everything else in this country, the current crisis too has been oscillating into the very common playground of politics and blame games. How each section of various groups is using tragedy of common people to build a vendetta, settle scores and pave a way for their future alliances and benefits. It’s the Kumbh mela Vs the last year Tablighi jammat. People are comparing numbers and deaths to prove which one was deadlier. Its political rallies. One party condemns it but that doesn’t stop them from having one of their own the very next day. There is oxygen shortage in hospitals but somehow at the same time there are also free oxygen langers. People are hoarding medicines and life savings drugs and selling them to the highest bidders! Not only this ambulances are charging anywhere between 10k to 50k for distances less than 10km. Crematoriums not to be left behind are also using this opportunity to earn some extra bucks.Talk about making money at the expense of someone’s life. Even things like thermometers are being sold at double their price. I have first-hand experience to this. My thermometer broke and when I called the local pharmacy, he started by saying he had none, gauzing my need and desperation. Towards the very end of the conversation he very casually mentioned that he may have a one but that would cost double the amount. I just did not know what to say. I kept thinking about how if a simple thermometer was open to such bidding, how difficult would it be for the Remidesivir’s and how actually were poor people helpless against this open robbery.

A lot of people and countries have been donating, but have people for a second thought about whether their well-intended gestures are bearing any fruit?

The big private hospitals I hear are hoarding beds and “discharging” patients only when they get a big amount from the rich. Everyone is questioning how government has let them down, no one questions are state leaders or for that matter the people. People are still fighting with each other on how the government they support is wrong. I was apalled at some comments directed at the death news of a journalist who was apparently from a pro government news chanel. The comments were on a picture of him, with his 2 little daughters and people were actually celebrating his death, calling him and his family names. At this time when the country is burning, people are dying - the hatred in the comments literally took my breath away.


People have conveniently forgotten about how they openly flouted all rules, refused to wear masks, had one big party after the other, weddings with no proper SOP followed. I have actually witnessed people laughing and saying how paranoid we are for simply masking or asking to wear a mask or for sanitizing. 

What we don’t understand even after this shit has blown out of proportion is that we ain’t anything. A miniscule virus has shown as that. Plan all you want, do whatever you can but everything can come to a standstill. All your carefully curated plans, all your expensive clothes and shoes, nothing matters. Just stay humble. Stop fighting over petty politics and over Politian’s. All of them are the same. Take care and help each other. Stop believing everything you read or listen in the news. Whether its from a pro government channel or otherwise. Don’t let powerful people sitting at powerful positions sway your opinions. Let humanity be above all.

Double mask up!
Stay safe.

Love:
Sepo

Monday, April 19, 2021

Staying Sane In The Times Of Corona

Last year around this time, newly into the changed world of lockdowns - fueled by the dalgona coffees and all the baking/cooking, I had started to write about things this virus and the subsequent lockdowns taught us. 

Me back then, baking cakes & breads at the drop of a hat!

It was a very positive post about how little we need to survive. And how we are destroying the nature and environment around us by increasing the carbon footprint. To add more on to the topic, I decided to wait a little longer as I was pretty sure - there would be more learnings and experiences to share. Somewhere down the year, the write up got lost amongst the huge list of drafts sitting in my laptops/ phone/ dairy/ back of the shopping list.

Exactly one year later - we have somehow found ourselves in a situation quite similar if not worse. But this time around the virus has wiped out every ounce of positivity from me. The news, social media, general conversations just about everything is centered around the virus. And with that comes the sheer helplessness that surrounds each of these news pieces. The line of ambulances, the lack of beds, oxygen and medicines in hospitals, about how people are not even able to bid a proper farewell to their loved ones. All this has just drained out the living hell out of me.

Plus I am sure now everyone has encountered this virus from pretty close quarters with atleast someone in the family, amongst relatives or friends or colleagues having tryst with this shit of a disease. Of late I have heard about so many sudden deaths from friends and family. And now with the new development of it being airborne the panic and scare around it has multipied.

Personally, all this negative news from everywhere is just making me anxious. Away from parents and loved ones, cooped up inside, same sort of routine everyday. I am sure everyone must be feeling quite blue. Although I am not really an outdoorsy adventurous type who is out partying or going on vacations. Even without covid I am mostly happy being home with a nice book and a strong cuppa coffee. But being taken away of even the option of going out is I guess what is making me restless, sleepless and panicky. Our residencial block is a containment zone with covid patients left, right and center. Since we have been advised to avoid the lifts - It has been weeks since I have even stepped outside the main door. 

Reading is helpful. Getting transported in the story in unfamiliar locale is helping even if temporarily. My bed has become my favorite place to be. And my shitty shit pcos has made my anxiety and mood swings worse than ever. And also my acne.


Now in order to stay sane, I am doing everything thats making me happy. Planting a new plant, applying nail paint, eating a whole pizza all by myself, staying the fuck away from news and social media, reading a lot of books, spending my time scrolling through good reads, waiting patiently for juicy ripe mangoes, following a skincare routine, avoiding these new shitty movies and series - this one story in a latest movie which I made mistake of watching had a scene of putting a baby in a pressure cooker!

These are not normal times. You see even the most strong people buckling under pressure. Depression and anxiety is at all time peak. We recently had someone committing suicide in our team. A perfectly happy jovial person with a toddler. And I guess thats when i realized how we hardly know what goes on in a person's mind and life. We choose to judge and comment on people. We formulate a image of people based on what they share on social media. But reality is different. A person may share a picture of cake they baked, but may feel hollow inside. 

Lets stop being judgement. Everyone has their own battles. Lets help in whatever capacity we can. Help your domestic helps. Pay even if you are not calling them to work. 

Meanwhile I read this article about things that ease out anxiety - it suggested re reading and re watching helps ease out anxiety as you already know the outcomes. So no more of these Ajeeb Dastans for me. I am gonna be watching re runs of .... No not FRIENDS, Gilmore Girls :) 
Coffee, books and some sass. That's exactly what I need right now.

One last thing! Mellisa MacCarthy  in Gilmore Girls was so much cuter with all that extra weight... one more reason to not buckle under the pressure of conformimg to society's idea of beauty and ideal size. 

Phew.

Stay happy and Stay home y'all 
And get vaccinated whenever you can!

Love:
Sepo